So I dated this girl in highschool for a few months and broke up with her (I was 14). I ran into her at college and we dated for 4.5 years. She was the love of my life. I would have steped into traffic to save her life. We always long distance but never more than a hour or two. I always saw her, she hardly ever visited me but that didnt really bother, though, some times it did. She made all the promises you could imagin " We are married in our hearts" ," trough hell and back we'll work anything out", I said them too and meant them. We set a date to be married and were excited. She eventually took a volunteer possition an hour away last summer and was living with 2 guys and 2 girls. She started spending alot of time with this one guy she lived with, going to the bars with him alone, singing kareokee with him, drinking, watching movies and carpooling. She called him " the older brother she never had" and the few times I stated concerned told me I was being insecure. In the mean time when I would see her she never wanted to be intimate, we would often just watch a movie while she did something else like knit. Normally I wouldnt care as much but I mean i only saw her once a week so I couldnt understand why she couldnt put it down and just be with me. She got back from a ski vacation with him and her roomates and didnt call me till 1100 6 hours after she had been home. She was to busy talking to her friends, she couldnt talk to me who she hadnt talked to in a week. I told her that made me upset and the next morning broke up with me on the phone. I know I wasnt perfect. But she wasnt either and I tried to accept it and was willing to do anything to fix things. I feel like she had an emotional affair maybe physical. She was with that guy a few weeks later. Was I crazy to be suspicious? Was I wrong to expect her to focus on me, on us when I could see her? Ya know whats funny though, she grew up right next to me. In my drunken whoring that I did after she left, not proud of it, I had a one night stand and the next day went to breakfast with her and her dad. I talk to my one night stands dad that one day than I did with my ex's dad after 4.5 years. Kinda sad huh?
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