Many of you that has touched my life here at DS, came to my rescue. I did put up much resistance because of my inability to reach out, accept help and tendencies to hide from the world. The prayers and the well wishes has been overwhelming to this sad mother. My son was very affected by my divorce and has become angry...destructive angry and he left home after a horrible ordeal a few days ago. I have been out of my mind with worry and yesterday, I felt a strange peace within my soul. I felt carried by love and even began to laugh again and yet, felt a bit of guilt for wanting to laugh. I have been laughing again for the past 3 weeks with help of my DS family and I was devastated that it was going to go away after being slammed to the ground with my son's dilenma. My son called me! I freaked out! I spoke to him swallowing tears because I needed to listen to him. He told me that he was okay and that he loved me and he was staying at a friend's house until he either finds a job or enlists to the service. I told him that whatever path he chooses, that his mommy's door will always be opened. He asked about his little brother and me. I told him that time will heal and that he needed to understand that I love him. I gave him advice on some pending things that he must not lose track of and I told him not to forget his prayers like I taught him. He chuckled and told me that he was indeed standing outside a Church. Oh God...I hope that his mind is healed and his path is lit by his mercy. After we hung up, I panicked wondering if I said the right things as well as the things I forgot to say. He blocked the number and I will have to wait for him to call me again. My first reaction was to call a friend I made here at DS and then, share this with you all. Thank you so much for your well wishes and please keep my son in your prayers no matter where his path may lead. Selfishly speaking, I wish I had him here with me bu, I must let God take over. Thank you all so much!
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