I am having such a bad day. I feel deceived, alone, sad, hurt and manipulated. Her mother, who lives in my house ret free, is aware and helps her I cant even look at my wife or in-law knowing they have deceived me so. It makes me want to throw up that she has had someone else's thing in her mouth. I want to turn my head when she kisses me. I know she makes fun of me when she talks to him. That she is getting it over me. That I am so stupid. That I was not a good husband and she would be better off dead then to be married to me. What did I do that was so bad. It was like a light switch going off. One day she was fine the next she found fault in everything I did or didnt do. What did I do wrong. I've always put my kids and wife before myself. I tried to give them whatever I could. I've always tried to be there for them and I've tried to never miss anything they were involved in. I gave up some of my hobbies and activities for theirs. I've always remembered special occasions. I always planned special things to do. If she wanted out she could have let me know instead of letting me be in limbo, treating me like crap and talking so badly about me. I have to pretend I know none of this because they dont know I know any of this. Its so tough when I am home to be around them and pretend that everything is normal. I feel like I m going crazy. I know in time this should pass but I hope by then I still have a job and my kids will be ok.:(
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