So I broke up with my ex abuser/daughters father in april and have gone without contact for weeks at a time, and tried very hard to keep him away. Problem is I find that sometimes i reply to his texts/calls just to try to validate that he loved me. I find that I cannot fully get over this man (who I was with for 4 years) because I feel like he never really loved me and I dont know what was real and what was fake in our relationship. See he can only be described as an abusive manipulator. And a good conman. He knows how to make me feel good (with compliments, gifts, etc) and knows how to hurt me bad (calling me names, cheating, lying etc). Ive been thro breakups before after long relationships but never have i felt so bad. I feel like all the cheating, lies and abuse he did to me that he never even loved me. How could we be together for 4 years and have a daughter and he not love me? To this day he professes his love for me and denies his actions. (Im sure he also tells other women the same stuff) I feel like I will never know the truth. The worst part is that he is now living with his sons mother who he dated before me(who he denies living with) which makes me feel like I was just a detour and I meant nothing to him. I dont wanna be together because he has done to much damage, i just want closure. I just wanna let go. Plz help.
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