Last November I found out I was expecting my 2nd child. Now everything was going GREAT in our relationship...I mean we had our ups and downs but it was something we got over within the day. So boom I become pregnant and that's when EVERYTHING changed , now my boyfriend had 2 children from a previous relationship & he and the mom had been broken up for 4 years, his children stayed with him because their mom was not a great fit. I thought it was perfect that he had children because I too had a chid around the same age as his two , so things were kinda good but I have no idea what made him switch up on me while I was pregnant but he did I use to cry literally everyday when I was pregnant I found out he cheated way before I was pregnant & even now after I had the baby he has finally left me for a coworker whom I knew about but he continued to lie to me about it ....my heart hurts I still love him but I'm like whyyy he has abused me physically and mentally ...spit on me while I was pregnant hit kit punched everything and yet I still wanna be with him like my mind is telling me noooo but something else won't let me leave him alone I don't hate him I just wish he would change his ways . Everytime I would be bring up the things he would do to me he'll say "I'm grown , I'm a man," oh and his fav line is " this just the way I am" he love to message females that sell their bodies and why do I wanna be with this man like I know I deserve better but ughhh what is it ? Can someone help me
Just an update on how I'm doing. I just feel like a complete basket case. I'm not liking myself these days. I think its from past abandonment trauma and from my boyfriend cheating. Im just an insecure mess that needs constant validation from everyone. Im not liking myself so much lately and I constantly feel people are going to dislike me for complaining all the time. In general I worry...