I am so mixed up today. I feel I've taken several steps back after I was doing so well with moving on. I keep reading where some people are still grieving their ex for a year or more and some continually regret that they left. That scares me. Then both the marriage counselor 2 months ago and my counselor yesterday made a similar statement about the relationship not being all the way over yet and I'm freaking out about it. I think I made the right decision but the grieving process is so confusing. What if I can't get over this and move on? How do I know that I will be able to move on? I don't feel myself "pining" for my stbx but letting go is so painful. I didn't want to leave but felt I was left no choice. I don't have any guilt that I didn't try hard enough because I tried my heart out before I finally did go. I am hurting extremely deeply from the betrayal and my self-esteem has taken a beating. I have 12 years worth of letting go to do and I hate it. Is it normal to feel this mixed up? I can't tell where the pain from being hurt and betrayed by him ends and the pain of just dealing with my own fears about building myself a new life begins.
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