well its mothers day and i am happy, im with my family, although everyone has someone and is married, but im here alone (i mean as far as realtionship wise goes). thats not really important i know, and i love my kids, they are really making this day happy for me. i just have been thinking about im here with our daughter and hes with the other woman and her kids, living with her and im the mother of his baby and he didnt even call to wish me happy mothers day. im taking care of our child with no help from him at all and its like he is with his new family with her two kids and taking care of them, honoring her on mothers day when it should be me that is honored. he could have atleast called and wished me happy mothers day. i know i shouldnt care but i do and im trying not to dwell on it. he's with her now and im trying to except it, and i know in my mind he will never be the man i needed him to be. he never wanted to play "dad" to his own child i know eventually his little act will diminish with her and she will see that he is not the man she met. when i first met him he was the same to me but he's really not like that , hes more the partier and doesnt want anyone to tell him or tie him down especially on the weekends when he wants to he out drinking all day with his loser friends. then on Monday he will tell her he will go look for a job and keep telling her that "he just dont know why no one will hire him" so he just mooches off the woman forever. anyway, i just wanted to get all that off my chest today and try to make myself feel better cause i know he is putting an act on for her and being mr wonderful but i know thats not the real him. if anyone wants to give advice or comments i would really love to hear them today, because i am trying to be strong and any little bit helps. thank you all. susan
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