Sometimes I think I am a prude, or that I have led a very sheltered life. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I wish I could just losen up abit. I don't wanna say I wanna go out and sleep with every man that I pass, but sheesh I don't think that I would be able to meet someone and have casual sex...Is that wrong? I feel like I would like to just change the way I am and sometimes not give a shit about the repercussions, but i always worry about what people would say. I know i shouldn't care but I do. I am 55 yrs old and i wanna let loose alittle. I know I'm not ready for a relationship it is too soon, but I would like something and I don't know what....My friend (neighbor) has a saying "the best way to get over a man is to get under another"..... that cracks me up...but I don't think I could do it... I was married to a man that was a druggie and now is out partying all over the place with god knows who... I am mad at that and maybe even jealous, but I am who I am and at 55 I don't think I can change am I an old fuddy dud...I had a really bad day today it's the first time in weeks that I cried so maybe that is what this is all about. who knows...I'm just rambling.. but thanks for listening
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