i am just sick of taking care of myself. i have been painting my house (slowly) taking care of the yard, mowing the grass (I live on a hill), cooking (budget is tight so I make my own bread, muffins and scones). I HATE eating dinner by myself every night. i just learned how to use a drill today (i didn't even know what a chuck was until recently!) and now just moved and reassembled my stupid desk. . . . ok. everyone can come on and tell me how this belongs in a journal, but i am really looking for HELP. I am tired of trying to improve myself and just want a break. and, if anyone has suggestions about dinner, please let me know. I feel like making dinner and coming online here and pretending to eat with people (I do have a 3 year-old, but she is a really picky eater and eats the same kinds of food at every meal and at a different time from me).
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