It's only been two weeks since everything happened. I was so mad at him today because all of the money he has been spending on our accounts. I seen he withdrew money at the casino. I don't know why but I got in my car and headed that way. I don't know what I thought I would say or do if he was there. Big surprise, she was with him. WOW. Did not see that coming. She's younger, prettier, skinnier. I talked with them for an hour and a half. I told her everything that he has done to me. I found out more lies. That hurt but I am glad I know. It was awkward but I am glad I finally got to say almost everything I wanted to. He couldn't say anything. You know the dear in the headlights look, that was him completely. I told her he has cheated on her, lied to her, and will continue to do so. Hell he has only known her a few weeks. Who's to say he won't do the same thing to her that he has done to me. We were married for 5 1/2 years. I was supposed to be the person he loved. The person he was supposed to spend the rest of his life with. He doesn't even love her yet. All he thinks about is himself. She has kids. They are supposed to come first and he is not the person who can do that. He is selfish and always will be. That I gaurentee will not change. I just don't know where to go from here? Why, after all of this, do I still want him to come home? I know that sounds nuts but I can't help it.
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