This thought keeps going through my mind. I went through some pretty severe depression about two years ago.. I really hit bottom, didn't think I wanted to be a mom any more, didn't want to get out of bed, started doing some crazy things. Stopped going to church, had a silly fling with a young guy, anyway it was really scary and thank God I am out of it. But it took a number of therapists, some big time soul searching, time, and lots of support from friends and family. I was lost for a time, but I didn't leave my family, I thought about it, I know I was emotionally unavailable to my husband and kids for about 6 months. It was not a great experience. I guess what I am getting at, is that I realize my husband is going through some of the samethings, and has been for about a year now. So I have ask him if he just needs time and he will come out of it also. He has said no, that he still feels he wants out of our marriage. But when he talks to me and I ask him about things he has said to me about the ow and his feelings towards me he says well I have been depressed, I don't know if I meant those things or not. It is so damn confussing. I want him to be well, I can empathize with him. But I also didn't leave the family, knew what I was going through was a fantasy, wasn't who I was. Just wonder if I am doing the right thing with holding him to his decision to leave and divorce or if I should not file and wait. Or is this just his way of manipulating me. I am so trusting.
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