I have been divorced for about a year. I still feel so much pain.I left him because my self esteem was so low because of him. He did not want to bathe before being intimate with me,he was a depressed and dark person and He did not give me affection.He always says that he never cheated so I should not have left.I still remember coming home from a hard day at work crying and I asked him for a hug, he told me to sit down and shut up. I use to try to sit on his lap and he would tell me to go and sit down some where like I was a 5 year old. I started modeling and started feeling really good about myself, I was going to school and started to feel like I was worth something. That is when he started treating me much better. All I could do is remember all of his mental abuse and finally just left. I was never happy, but pretended to be for the past five years.I never felt that I was worth anything, but I stayed because I just had such a low self esteem.I have graced the pages of many known magazine, but still feel so low.He writes me crazy emails about wishing I was dead and how much he hates me for leaving. He always says that I was wrong for leaving. I HOPE SOMEONE GIVES FEEDBACK:)
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