It's still going, the arguments. I'm tired. I feel like im not as beautiful as I know I am. He walks away as if I'm just that replaceable.I know there is someone for me that will treat me like the queen I am. I've given up on this three year relationship. he lies about the weather if you let him. He claims he loves me but I thought you showed it if you do. I show it. He tries to switch things around to make it like I do the same and I think thats just a cop out. I am unhappy right now knowing the way things are between us but my insides are telling me this is best. But the other side of my heart is telling me girl you are about to be unhappy for real and I don't want to be. But why set myself up to be hurt again and again. I am over my head in pain. I just wish I had never meet him. I was happy with being alone before I meet him why did GOd send him? I just really want to become this heartless person but can't. I havn't any friends or family left and i feel alone. This was my family, so do you understand how i feel now? My world is gone. I have no one. Right now im pouring out my true feelings cause noon of you know me and I just want someone to know someone out here feels like they do, thats pretty much what im looking for on here. I have never told strangers how I've felt but part of me feels like this is what I need and the other half feels You aint gonna get any response so I'm just doing it for self comfort. I just really need someone to let me know that they are feeling in the same boat. please
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