Well, I have been doing fairly well. I'm over my husband just not the memories and the what could have been's. This is my last year in my house. I will be moving in with my parents after the first of the year. I'm 57 years old so you can imagine how horrible it will be. I love my parents but have been away from home since I was 19. I am also going to be looking for another job after the first of the year. The job I have now is a temp job that was to last through Christmas. I dread job hunting. I have no skills since I was a stay at home grandma for the past 10 years. Who wants to hire a 57 year old grandma with no skills? Nobody! Anyway, I was at the grocery store last night and had a major meltdown. I thought I was going to lose it in the cereal aisle. I kept taking deep, deep breaths just to make it through. All I kept thinking about was how this was going to be my last Christmas in the last home that I will ever live in by myself. I came home and bawled half the night. Now I have to go to work and dread that too! I'm a basket case and yet have to keep on functioning. PLease send a few prayers up for me that I can make it through this. I'm doing a horrible job of it this week. You know how this roller coaster ride is!!!!! I have to go get ready. I need to leave in 15 minutes. Just stopped by to ask for prayers. Thanks for being here it helps so much just to know that I can come here and let it all out. Gotta run!
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