people are always discussing over how someone always loses in a relationship, i believe even though i had the short end of the stick im learning from this, me and this girl were best friends for about 6 years, to later go out for 2 years. it was pretty much the best 2 years i ever had. it was a healthy relationship till towards the end. she was always a bit manipulative, would get extremely jealous and only wanted me to herself. she eventually never wanted me to have friends and like a fool i let go of so many friends. i thought it was worth it to be with her. i got myself a job since i am 20 had to pay some bills and a full-time student in college. she eventually got one herself, but was en-ranged with the fact i worked. she told me to quit that she'll pay for it, eventually i saw the job was inter fearing with school, so with her motivation i left it. I wasn't perfect but i was always truthful and did anything just to make her smile. eventually she became really abusive and eventually hit me. i knew things were going downhill from there but i still hoped for the best. eventually i couldn't take the physical and mental abuse so i asked for a break. she cried and i felt horrible. but i tried to be strong hoping that if with me i cant help her i believe i have to let her go to save her and help her. 3 days after the breakup she had sex with a girl. i saw it as cheating, it devastated and scarred my heart. people say its just a girl but to me when you truly love someone, cheating is unconditional. i let things go n tried to be her friend either way, she tried to seem like the victim. as if i was trying to keep her from having fun ect. when i always encouraged her to hangout with her friends. i never trusted her friends but i always trusted her. for weeks i chased her hoping that she'll try n actually be my friend instead of a crappy hi by friend. she got drunk and high one day and told me how she loves me and if she gets with me ill leave her and wouldn't want her anymore and that she doesn't want anyone to have control of her feelings the way i did. i never understood what she meant since i never tried to hurt her. yet i still tried to be her friend, eventually she said i was annoying because i would see her walking around with another guy hugging him and ill feel hurt, and she'll make it seem as if i was wrong for feeling that way. she so called tried to be my friend which i do see, but i feel as if she was trying to keep me cling ed like she said she doesn't want me out of her life but if i leave its w.e. so i held my ground till today i still think of her but shes doing so bad, drinking every week and smoking weed. things she never did before, as far as i know shes just having fun.
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