I am feeling lonely today. My girlfriends are all busy and I have been e-mailing with an old friend in Arizona, pretty much on a daily basis for about a month. I have been alone along time and without a lover even longer. My friend has not returned my e-mails in 2 days and I guess in the last month I really got use to hearing from him on a daily basis. It made me happy. I didn't realize how much I looked forward to those e-mails. I know it is crazy and gripping behavior to be so emotionally attached to a few e-mails, and to expect someone to e-mail daily is even more ridiculous. I would hate it if someone wanted me to keep that close contact, I would bolt. So why am I so depressed about it, it is not rationale. I went months and years without hearing from him and now I feel like this sooooo not rationale. Anyway, I am not going to do anything---call or e-mail. I am going to try to forget about it and focus on things I need to do for me and the kids.
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