Well, here I am walking around the big, beautiful house we built and he's sleeping in an extra room at his dad's house and our kids are with him for the weekend. This entire situation is so stupid. I guess I cannot begin to understand why he wanted out because I could not imagine wanting a single life over family and marriage. He just couldn't deal. I am much better off in the long run, if only I could get over the guilt that this is going to mess the kids up. What a crappy choice, let him back into our lives and worry about him stealing, disappearing, etc. in order for the kids to live in a 2 parent home, or get on with my life with my girls and find a new path for the 3 of us. I know the right choice, just sitting here all alone tonight is riduclous. I had my girls so I could be with them EVERY night. This really sucks. I am glad that they are spending time with him, glad he's spending time with them too, but still the whole thing is just stupid. Anyone else sitting here thinking about just how ridculous the situation is when you are dealing with someone that just can't grow up?
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