Everything I own has a memory with him. EVERYTHING. The things that are absolutely 100% him, I have packed into a box and used a ton of packing tape to make sure it's sealed tight. Stuffed animals, jewelry, my wedding ring, love letters, and the likes are in it. I wanted to just throw it all away, but he told me to put everything in a box and keep it. He said in time, I'll want to open it and look at everything. WHY? What have you done with your keepsakes and what will you do in the future? I want to bury the box in the future and have a funeral for my dead marriage. I know that sounds sooooo corny and lame, but I have to let it go.
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