I have been going out more and more. The more I go out, the better I feel. I told a close friend last night at a dinner party that I feel a big burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I do really feel that way. I have noticed that people are drawn to my smile, my energy I give off. I have made a few new friends and I feel they are a start of new close friends. I feel I am becoming the guy I was, the guy that has been lost, the guy I should be, and the guy I want to be. Some one said to me "it will be tough when you are not with the kids". My reply was "but when I am with them, I will be with them, and when I am not with them, I will be not with them". Meaning, I will be working on who I am when they are away. It's all good. I think the kids will see a better dad every time they are with me. Every time alittle improvement with me. And that is good. I can not control others in my life or in the kids life, only me and the time with them.
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