I just found out that the man that I dated for over 3 years never really did care about me at all. He is supposedly madly in love with another woman now. He has brought her to meet his parents (who live out of town) and she has even met his ex. She has two young children and he is playing daddy by watching her kids while she is working. His kids are alot older and can take care of themselves. The things that are bothering me is that when we were dating he never told me that he loved me. He always told me actions speak louder than words and his actions were telling me that I was someone special to him. I was not the aggresor in this relationship. He always called me to go places and every once in a while I would suggest that we do something. I gave him so many opportunities to walk away from our relationship over the course of the 3 years it is not funny. He never took me up on any of them. I asked him one day if he saw the possibility of a future for us. He replied by saying that he could not make any promises and he did not want to give me any false hopes but it was not like he did not see the possibility. I know you can\'t predict the future but that was this past October. We broke up in mid November. Now he started seeing the other person less than a week after we broke up and he is saying that the new person is not the reason. She may not be the total reason but she did give him the incentive to break it off with me. Now he is telling people that she was not the reason like he did nothing wrong. I want these people to know about all the opportunties I gave him to get out of this that he never took and how he let the relationship go on for as long as he did knowing how I felt. The things that are bothering me the most is that I am feeling like I never meant anything to him at all. We were intimate and when we were I feel like that meant nothing to him. He knew how I was feeling and that I fell deeply in love with him. I just feel used and that I am invisible now. It seems like all the old feelings just after the break up are here again. I don\'t call him or run into him. I am keeping my distance from him and if I ever run into him, I am going the other way. I don\'t know if I could hold my tongue to tell him how he made me feel. Please help me get through this. I am feeling like I am nothing and this is something that I have never experienced before.
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