Today was the day. The gavel has been banged and my marriage is officially dissolved. Not only do I not feel better, I feel awfully pessimistic about the future. At first I thought that the "big day" was going to be great. I was going to have a marriage license burning party and yada yada yada. All I've done today is go to court and come home and just kind of sat in quiet reflection trying not to feel any guilt, knowing that it's not all my fault, but at times punishing myself for things that were beyond my control. Why can't I get past the feeling that life just completely sucks. Maybe tommorow will be better.