I have been with David since I was 15-11 years. we have always had problems. Been married 4.5 years, seperated for 5 months 3 years ago, did 9 months of marriage counseling. He lost his job 6 months ago and I found out that he developed a serious drug addiction. He is trying to get clean, but still struggles and lies to me and wont get a job. I know deep down that I can't keep doing this. But I love this man with everything I have and more. We were supposed to have babies and live life together and now it looks more and more everyday that just isn't going to happen. I am new here, so please be gentle, it's not really helpful to hear that I just need to leave because as I am sure you all can appreciate, it's not that easy. I never thought I would be 26 and not have a baby and now I am looking at possibly starting all over. I feel like I will never be ok again and that all my dreams in life have been ruined. All I have ever done is love him, I am not perfect and I have done and said some horrible things, but I love him like no one in his entire life has ever loved him. But when you start dealing with addiction, no of that matters. I feel like I will hurt forever and that I am damaged goods now. I feel like I will never meet someone else in time to do the thing I want more than life-have a baby.
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