I've found myself today feeling more at peace with the situations surrounding my marriage. I still love him and I guess I always will, but I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to get out there and meet new people and have a life. I'm ready to be 23, instead of feeling like I've got one foot in the grave and a recluse. Is it wrong for me to be ready after only a few days? I mean the more I've thought about everything the more I've realized that my marriage was over a long time ago. I don't even know why we held on for as long as we did. Does this mean that I wasn't in love with him like I thought I was? Or have I just come to terms with it? I guess I just feel like I'm 23 and life is to short to waste it on crying over someone who doesn't even love me anymore. I feel a little guilty and almost like I'm cheating on him by having these thoughts. It's so confusing!
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