So I haven't talked to him, and I'm alive.lol Not that it isn't nearly killing me. I always dread the weekends because I know thats when he's going to go out and have fun, like we used too. I end up driving myself crazy because of it. Today was suprisingly different. Well, the day stared off badly and I wanted to call him sooooo bad, but around 4 I don't know, I just kinda started to snap out of it, and really didn't think about it too much. I have never been this calm on a weekend, and I wonder....is it just the calm before the storm? Has anyone ever felt this and it not last? I am trying not to get my hopes up but I really want to think this feeling will last and only get stronger. I don't even really have any plans this weekend and I am just so surprised at how I am feeling. I actually went to the gym tonight (something I haven't been doing like I should and I used to love) I actually think I may be able to get some sleep tonight. Just wonder if anyone else can relate. Thanks
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