Long story short-I met my H almost 11 years ago and we married almost 9 years ago. He cheated on me from the beginning and I started finding out about all of it around year 3. I mean multiple affairs-he had long term, short term and one nighters. I tried-I really tried-counseling, date nights, bending myself into things that I wasn't-to save our marriage. I have walked around for years now not liking myself very much because I have felt like such a door mat. Things were ok for the past year or so and then a few months ago, he started acting different again. So Monday I went to finally see a divorce lawyer and now we are legally separated. My thing is this :What is wrong with me? I am not sad-I feel relief. I have slept better in the past 2 nights that in the past 11 years. Part of me says that I should be mourning the end of my marriage, but honestly I just feel like celebrating my freedom-from cheating, lies and basically being married to the anti christ ! What is wrong with me? Has anyone else felt like I do? Will it all come crashing down on me at a later date? Or have I served my time in hell already-fighting through all of the crap of the past 11 years? I haven't been on DS very long, but thanks to you all-I finally feel like I have someone who knows where I am and a place to vent.
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