so i am in the dating scene again, and i met this guy who is also recently divorced. mine was very messy alot of maliciousness on his side, but his wasnt it was mutual, very cooperative. so we are starting to get serious and i find wedding pictures on a cd and some cards and some other things he just hasnt gotten around to throwing away....i find myself being jealous of what they had because i have never had that, my ex never really was in love with me, he was in love with the thought of being married now, here i am crying uncontrollably like a child. im scared, im scared because i cant be hurt like i have been in the past, even though i was the one to walk away
im worried that maybe i could never be what she was to him. i worry that im not good enough for him, i worry that we'll fight, i worry that this will end up the same way all my other relationships have ended. i am just so tired of losing. he is so different than the others, he makes me very happy but i am just so scared and nervous