Before I even get started, I'll say this. I know that in time, things will get better. I know that time heals all wounds. I know that there are plenty of fish in the sea, and so on, and so forth. However, it's getting to that point that is killing me. It happened three months ago, but I still can't sleep without pills, and whereas I used to enjoy down time, now I'm afraid of it. I am only 25, and two woman have left me for other men. When I talk to other girls about it, no one can understand what the problem is. I seem to find the most manly women, who want an absentee boyfriend. I am naturally caring, I always put women first, and I have frequently used the expression "what are you thinking", to start a conversation. My friends who are women keep saying that the things the women I get involved with hated, are all the things they fight about with their boyfriends for not doing. It is ripping me apart. I tried online dating, and meeting people out but no one is my type. I keep comparing back to the others and no on can seem to fit the bill. I seemed to find this ability to completely shut my emotions off, and walk around like a robot most of the day. At night, when I actually have to lie in bed alone thinking about everything I regress right back to where I started. I know its self-destructive but I've been drinking, and taking sleeping pills just to pass out. Are there any normal girls out there? I don't think what I am looking for is so rare. I don't even need normal... Quirky is fine! Everyone has their issues. I just want an attractive girl, who is capable of expressing their emotions, and doesn't get mad when you have flowers sent to their office on Valentines day. (true story).
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