I am so frustrated because of my marriage and the pattern that we can't seem to overcome! I have been married almost 10 years and they have not been a happy 10 years. As a matter of fact the only good thing that I have gotten from the marriage is 2 wonderful children! I have been going to counseling and have learned that I need to start setting some boundaries and not let me husband keep treating me the way he does, but every time I try to be strong he turns on all the charm and I end up right back in the same situations with him doing and saying whatever he feels like without regard to how I feel. When I tell him that we can't keep living this way he says that whatever I want is fine with him...in other words, if I want to stay married to him that's fine and if I want a divorce that's fine...the prospect of loosing his family means nothing to him. Why can't I be strong enough to tell him it is over and mean it??? Why doesn't he love me or care about me? How do you just turn off your feelings? I feel like he has a switch with a "I love her" mode and a "I don't love her" mode and he just flips the switch to suit whatever he wants at the moment. Sometimes i feel like I am a crazy woman!!!!
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