its been about two weeks since I found out she was cheating and she doesnt want me anymore and today im really feeling the loss. i cant stop thinking about all the loving times we had. i loved my life with her. she meant so much to me. i thought that my life couldnt get any better. i would pay 1 million dollars if i could go back in time and fix whatever the problem was. i wish i could just live in those 5 great years forever. every morning when i wake up i think to myself that i wish it was all a bad dream and that she was lying next to me and i could hug her and kiss her and tell her how much i love her. im so disrought today i cant think of anything else. i feel so detached and out of place i wish someone would just put me out of my misery. i pray to god to help me through this.
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