Well, yesterday you all gave me some advice about how to end the constant battle within myself that happens everytime I answer the phone when my ex calls. NO CONTACT! Thats where my healing will start. Well, he called last night, and I knew I had to tell him to leave me alone, and stop holding me back just so he could still have some of me, even though he doesn't want all of me. I answered the phone and told him that I realized I was trying to love and hold on to someone who wasn't there anymore, and how it was killing me to have this 1/4 relationship with him. I told him it had to stop. He reacted in a completly wierd way. He got so mad and started calling me names and telling me I was telling hime this so I could go out and find a boytoy. I guess he is jealous that he wasn't the one calling the shots, I don't know. I feel horrible and he made me feel so guilty. He verbally abused me alot during our relationship, and last night he said 90% of what he had ever said was true. That hurt me so badly, to top it all off the last words he said to me were F**k Off, then he hung up on me. It's like theres no closure here. You would not believe how I feel right now. Will someone help me understand this please?
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