I was just in a chat room with alot of friends and who comes in but the STBX... that pissed me off to start but he is also friends with them. Well a couple of women said are you gonna sing for us again Wayne(STBX) and i typed he doesn't sing... One of the women said maybe he is shy and he won't sing in front of you.... I said that is funny in 11 years he didn't sing.. and then he said he is shy... I said shy NO WAY remember we are still married I know your not shy... WHY the helll do I feel compelled to do these things... normally I just leave if he comes in the chat room cuz I know I will say something... but tonight I just had to do it...WHY WHY WTF is wrong with me.... I so hate him... I hate the way he makes me feel... but the sad part is that I still love him.. I don't want to I am trying not to but sometimes its soooo frikken hard... grr now I am mad at myself that i did that
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