I have been avoiding calling the ex or texting. I knew that calling would turn me to tears. He has now gone back home, so the distance is good and safe. Last night and this morning I see he is on the poker site I play on. I of course watched the table he was at (couldn't resist). He starts to make comments and again my decision was validated as he always got so upset and it's just a game so if u r not having fun why play? He has told me he is working but then this morning he seemed to be registered for the days tournaments. Crack addicts lie to others as well as themselves. This morning again solidified my decision in my mind and heart. The pain is still there but this was a good experience to validate my choices. Life will get better and I am getting stronger everyday!!!