I will be soon be 40 years old and today, without my husband by my side, I first picked up my two younger daughters with a friend each to come home and spend the night with them, came home, grilled hot dogs and cooked the 'bestest' (lol) cheesiest macaroni and cheese in the world, it was the bomb! I carried them all to my oldest daughter's soccer game, picked up another child along the way to add to the bunch, one more never matters in our house, took them all to eat after the game, came back home again, only to have to show off my dancing abilities, prove to this bunch of ten and six year olds, that mama can in fact shake her groove thing, I can 'electric slide, cupid shuffle, macarena, do the tootsie roll, and the worm' !!!! However, I can barely breathe at this very moment!! Now as I sit here at the computer, I have been put out of my own bed, all five are in my king size bed and it'll be the couch for me. We have laughed, giggled, burped, bounced, and danced, the night away. And just like my text to my stbx said, " I will never in my life understand how what you go home to compares to what I did" I have known that it was over, known it was done, today I decided I had to let it go completely, I can no longer believe in him, believe he will some how turn back into the man I married. He has made his choice and so have I, I am going to live and be happy. And what a wonderful way to spend my very first day! Now I have to go find the ben gay!! I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
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