I don't know why I did it, but I did it, and now I'm paying a HUGE price. With the in-laws in town this past week, I've been getting advice from every which direction...them, my family, friends. I called stbx yesterday and told him I needed him to take the kids for a few days. I had almost certain proof he was staying at the OW's instead of where he said, but I couldn't be certain he wasn't flip-flopping between the two places. Well, maybe deep down I knew, but didn't want to accept it. I was surprised when he quickly agreed despite the short notice. That made me wonder. Later I called him back and asked for the address. Long story short, I did end up getting all the proof I needed to know that's where he's been all the time. I tried to get out of it, confronted him this morning, and begged him not to have the kids there with her around. I asked him to have her leave, anything. He wouldn't do that, and still tried to tell me they are just friends. I ultimately gave in because I was terrified of what it could do to me in the divorce if I refused him his kids, but it has been killing me all day. I can't eat. I can't do anything. I feel like dying.
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