As I am learning with my wife..You can't force someone to want you..they have to want you themselves..It is hard to accept but it gets easier each day..

Okay Jenn, I don't want to sound like a nagging mom, but I read your profile. Get back into school and put your energy there. If he comes back great. If he doesn't, at least you have an education and a career to work on.

But he says he wants to be with me and he says he loves me a lot. He just says he can't handle my sadness and anger about little things. I don't know what to do about it.

Oh trust me i'm going to go back to school. i can't deal with the type of jobs i have to work at right now and i certainly don't want to do it for the rest of my life, i just need to figure out what i'm going to do and where i'm going to go, plus get my finances straight

I agree with Bob. You can't force someone to want you. If it was meant to be he will be back. My advice, get a grip on your depression. I'm not taking his side, but I knowe that it is hard to be with somebody that has "mental issues" I dealt with that myself. You need to do it for your own sake. And definitely don't skip out on school. I know personally how easy it is to say that you will go back and sometimes life just has it's way with you. Put up the good fight with everything you've got going on and I know you will come out ahead. GOOD LUCK!!!

I personally don't want anyone who has made it clear that they don't want me -- it jsut doesn't make sense to me that way.

He says he just wants to take some time off and maybe all i want to hear is that he's wrong. but i know he's right. and it hurts soooo much. he says he loves me, and didn't want to break up w/ me just wanted to take a break but what does that mean!?

Jenn, there are a lot of medications you can get for $4 from Walmart for a month's supply. Bring the list to your doctor and ask for one. Newer medicine is not always better medicine.

You said in your journal he helped you a lot through your depression. He is probably exhausted, as anyone who has a depressed family member can tell you.

Maybe he really does just need a break, so, give him a break. I know it's hard for you.

Give it a little time, if the two of you are truly meant to be than he will come back.

I know that the situation only amplifies your depression but for the time beeing it would probably be best to concantrate on helping yourself with your depression, not for him(or to get him back) but for you.