My wife and I were married for 15 years plus over a year of courting. We have 2 girls ages 10&14 and a 12 year old son. I was the bread winner for 90% of the time thats how we both wanted it. We were rarely apart and I thought that I would be married to her forever. Wrong! A few years ago, after the death of my Dad and a huge financial crisis I became depressed and anxious so bad that I was hospitalized for a few days. My wife at the point wanted a divorce she looked for a place to rent, opened up bank accounts and so on. She had lost all respect for me and could not rely on me anymore. Up until this point we always lived in really nice pool homes -always above average in all sorts of ways. I was employed 95% of my life up until that illness. So when things got tough she wanted out. I had to work out of State not much work in OH and I did what I had to do for my family. For 14 months on and off, we discussed divorce. In June 06 my wife and our 3 children left for Scotland for a summer long vacation. I was enjoying my summer -there was a new found passion in me I am not sure why. Now for my stupid moment. In August 2006 I asked her for a divorce via email. Dumb but I figured that she had all of her family, in Scotland supporting her, then she would manage better. Well she managed just fine. She emailed me back she and the children will stay in Scotland. She enrolled them in school and she got a job. I waited for her sanity to return but she says that she had no choice. I contacted the USA State Dept. they consider this Child Abduction. My wife NEVER acknowledged this. I decide not to pursue this router I would win the battle but not the war -I didnt want my children escorted home by the FBI!! I was a VERY involved dad and husband and now my wife and children have disappeared. I saw them at Christmas it was very difficult with me and the kids very strained for some reason. My wife was and still is cold and oblivious to my pain, anger and frustration. I asked her repeatedly for reconciliation and counseling. She always refused. She could not rely on me. I have worked 90% of the time since she left Ohio and earn about $120/ year inventing and engineering medical devices. My children have been alienated by my wife and here 5 siblings and her parents whom they all live near. Bad things are always said about me by her family. Just yesterday my 10 year old told me that I wasnt allowed in her Aunties home where her mom is currently living in and paying rent with my children. Nice. Its a horrible situation which I dont know what to do. There have been lots of times when I just dont want to go on. We were divorce Jan 07. The children are making their own lives in a different country and I am just being forgotten about. A woman came into my life last winter and we are in love and we would like to get married. It hurts me so much - -I think that I am somehow abandoning my children. My family tell me to get on with MY life. I am not finding that easy to do. 16 years with the same woman who I did everything with along with my 3 children. Kissing them goodnight and playing with them and juts being with them and helping them with all sorts of stuff. Its all just vanished. It hurts and no one can help me. I am only posting this as a sort of therapy and would be interested in any comments that would be made here on the board. Thanks.
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