Alot of you know my background so I won't get to in depth with it. My husband and I are trial seperating which actually he physically moves out tomorrow morning. So last night we went togther to get the title to my car in my name and not his, he showed me his new place and then I wanted to go to happy hour. We went to happy hour had a good time I think we were there for about an hour or so. This morning husband calls me and said I really had a good time with you last night. It made me realize that I am still in love with you and he was pushing it away so I would hate him and make it easier on him. Well he told me I am not looking for your forgiveness, but I am apoligizing for all the bad I did to you and the girls. He said he wants his family in the end and he will get the help he needs. He said it will take time because he will make more mistakes along the way, but at least I won't be in the crossfire anymore. I told him I am giving him a time table to start the process of getting the help he needs. I will not share the timetable with him though. In my mind if he doesn't start to seek the help within 6 months than I have to file. I am not asking for a miracle just that he started seeking AA and counseling. That would be enough to show me he is not heading down the wrong road. I told him today when he said he realizes he is in love with me and I told him I couldn't say it back. I told him I love him and I always will, but I am not sure he is not what I want. This goes back to him getting the help he needs and deserves. I know it is not going to be flowers and rose petals and I am not looking for that. Just so you know my focus is still on ME and my daughters.
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