OMG what is wrong with me..I miss him so much. Even after everything, he closed all the bank accounts, treating me like a doormat, cold and mean. Leaving me broke to raise 3 kids. Sleeping with someone else. Last year when we split the first time, he closed the bank accts, and I bounced 2 checks and didnt know it, Sheriff shows up at my door last night with 2 warrents for my arrest. I was never contacted saying anything about bad checks. Had no idea. The bank accts. were closed I had to borrow the money, so a 8.00 and 16.00 check turned into 359.00 Now its friday night and I know he is out on a date. I am curled up in bed not able to stop crying. Every email he sends he says "When the divorce is final" After everything I miss him, I miss his touch, I miss him. Our sex life was outstanding very passionate, now I have nothing. What is wrong with me, how do I stop feeling like this. Im stressed beyond belief, living with a constant headache, and shaking all the time. Cant eat, cant sleep. All I want is for him to walk through the door and say I love you baby girl, like he did no more than a month ago. Even after all the verbal abuse I still feel like that...What the hell is wrong with me. Everybody says you will get through it. I just lost the love of my life, I see no light at the end of the tunnel, and Im falling farther and farther down in a bottomless pit. Now tommarrow I have to hand off my kids to him and see him and im dreading that. Being selfish. At night I pray, for peace, and yet to get it. Its never going to be ok. I grew up with this man, spent half my life with him, and now im alone. Im sinking....
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