I am trying to end a long term relationship with someone that I still love dearly. The reasons for ending it are complicated but the bottom line is it just hurts too much to stay in it (and believe me Ive explored every other angle there is no other choice but to end it). We spent several years apart/long distance and so many of the chats we had were online. There are a few that touched my heart so much that I saved them. Today I read through some of them. I dont know why but I did. I miss him so much. He was the person I confided in, that I told everything to; that supported me, that understood me and that was always there for me. He was that person for 16 years. Ive been taking a lot of distance, which means that we barely talk anymore and my heart hurts so much from that. When I think of him now, my heart is just so heavy. I dont know how to get over this. Sometimes I am ok but it comes back in waves and I wonder if it really possible to get over him; to get to a place where I have no emotional response when I think of him? I miss him so much and just wonder if Im going to feel this way forever. He was such an important part of my life for almost half of it; without him I almost feel like Im missing part of me.
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