I miss his smile, and laughter in the house. I miss his cuddles. I miss the way he used to look at me with such love...I miss acting silly together. I miss going to interesting places together..I miss his companionship. I miss talking to him about everthing. I miss everything about him. I stuffed it up. I was selfish and put my needs first, totally putting his needs aside..I can see that now..I can see now, how hard he tried not to leave. I can see how hard for him it was to tell me he's leaving. I stuffed up the best thing that ever happened to me. I miss him. I want him to touch me. I can see now what I did. I couldn't give the effection he needed and wanted from me so much. I was too selfish and worried about the issues I had..I thought it was forever truly, and I took it for granted. He is the best husband, father, friend, and he's hurting too. But he wont come home. I know it's killing him that he dosn't see his son everynight now and kiss him goodnight...I can see in his eyes he's not happy. I feel like I'm not hurting for myself anymore, but for him, because I'm so sorry I didn't give him what he craved so much..He loved me so much, I felt it and saw it everyday. I loved the way he's look at me. The way he treated me. I took it all for granted..Why would I do that. Why would I take such a good man for granted like that..Why couldn't I see it then, and I can see it now.....Even though he walked out, I think he is suffering more than me....His spark has gone. I'm so sorry. I do love him so much, and I know now, why wont he try again..I know now what I did.....We were meant to be together...My spark left and then I drained his away. My spark is back, I know it would work, I know.....But he wont come home........I miss him so much..So much. I want him here with me.....Like it used to be..I know it will work out.....I'm sorry and have learnt..
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