Well, I made it through the big anniversary day. Thanks to everyone who was so supportive. By the end of the day I was realizing that it was really over if he couldn't even bother to talk to me on our anniversary. And then, right before bed- I get an email saying "of course I thought about you today. I am sorry that I don't have any answers and that I have caused you such pain". And just like that the false hope is back. I know what he said doesn't change anything. In fact he prob didn't even email me until after he left the girlfriends house. But, there it is. The false sense of hope that we will be able to repair this. Why do I feel this way. Nothing he said in that email indicates a reconcilliation. This is why the no contact rule is so important. I know the next email I get will be about the separation agreement, and then I will be right back where I started. How do let go of that hope? I know I need to to move forward- but one kind word from him and I am right back where I started. Help. I have to go to work, but I will check back when I can. Thanks for any input you can give me.
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