So my ex and I have been broke up for about 2 months, we have hung out a few times and talk some. All of the sudden about a week ago she wanted to see me all the time, was telling me how much she missed me and that she is glad to have me in her life. I'll admit that this got me pretty excited because I was getting the impression that she was wanting to work things out. A few days ago she was texting me and said that she thinks we should talk about whats going on between us, so i agreed to meet her and talk. I was excited because in my mind we were apart and the only reason she wanted to talk to be to attempt to rekindle things. I met up with her at her apartment and we just talked for a while then she was like well do you wanna talk about what has been going on? So, I told her the same thing I had told her from the start of the break up, that I loved her and cared for her very much and would like to work things out again. She then told me that she wasn't ready for a relationship again. That she enjoys the time that she has now but is lonely and knows I wont screw her over like all of her friends do????? She said that she wants to be there for me and wants me to be there for her but that she can't open herself to get back into a relationship....... I was crushed..... I mean she really wanted to talk to just re-enforce the things I already knew?? So, now I'm torn between what my head thinks (that she is just using me because I'm there for her. Like getting her cake and eating it too) and what my heart feels ( That she is just going through some rough times in her life and that I need to just give things time but help out as well)........ I'm so confused by all of this mess, I don't want to turn my back on a 3 year relationship that wasn't bad at all, and she says she doesn't either. All that our "talk" accomplished was bringing back pain and hurt for both of us. I don't know what to do anymore I really do love this girl like crazy and she knows it, she even brags to her friends about how great of a guy I am, but my heart can only take so much pain and hurt. I don't want to lose her forever
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