How can I make my heart let this man go!!! I still love him, but wish I could hate him. It would make things so much easier. Long story short, my husband of 19 yrs and I were separated for a couple of years (he had a drug problem he was working thru...I thought). We stayed very close, still maintain a marriage relationship. We talked, about getting back together. He actually told me to give up my apt and move in with him. Until he finally got the balls to tell me that he had another family.I just found this out in Feb. He has 2 kids (2yrs and 6 mos) with a girltoy 20+ years younger that he. He has moved them in with him. I hate him for that. He claims he did because they had no where to go, she lost her apt (REALLY). We have kids too! My son and daughter can not even visit their father anymore because he has moved his #2 (or should I say #1 family in). I have filed for divorce, all I have to do is pay my final fee of $875. My stbx has asked me not to sign the papers...but I have to. I would love to work things out, but he has two babies....by another chick! He claims that he still loves me, and these 2 kids where a accident (Right!). Our 20th anniversary was 7/1, this nut suprised me at work and met me for lunch to wish me happy anniversary. This is retarded. We have this relationship now that is crazy. He still calls me his wife, but I not (really). I started seeing a therapist last week in hopes that I can work my feelings out and move on.He showed up at my appt with my therapist...It was as if we were in marriage counceling....What the hell is wrong with this picture??!!! This is my husband, who made me the other woman, how is actively dating other women outside of his girltoy. How crazy is this...this man has a wife, a live in girlfriend and dates other women like crazy!! He has screwed over me and my family....but I can't let him go....I want to hate him, but I don't....I need help!
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