I am 33 years old with 4 beutiful boys. I am fresh into what is looking like my 2nd divorce. We seperated just over 2 weeks ago, and she is constantly trying anything she can to upset me or be as rude as possible to me. I am having a really hard time with the thought of being divorced two times with 4 children. I have worked for a very long time to "fix" our issues, but she doesn't every want to "work" the steps. She feels once something is done is shouldn't be discussed again. This has caused many many many problems throughout our marriage. I want to work things out, but she only knows how to be rude, cold, and spitefull. This is VERY hurtfull. Yet, I continue to put myself out there hoping things will be different. She looks at everything negatively and turns it around on me. In her eyes, I am at fault for everything. I'm not saying I didn't make mistakes, but I have came to her and been honest when I have. Which is more than I can say for her. She just wants to avoid everything and act like she didn't do anything. Yet, I can't say anything to her about what she has or is doing. What's up with that?? Why does she feel she has the right to say something to me, but I can't say anything to her? It just isn't right. I'm tired of all the drama and manipulation, but I do truly love her. I continue to have hope that she will figure it out someday and be different, but it doesn't seem that she wants too. I am dying inside and I just don't know what to do. I am so lonely I can't stand it. The bed is soooooo empty, the house seems so cold, and the children's hurt is overwhelming. What do I do???? I just want to fill the void with someone else, but I don't want to make the same mistake I have in the past when she has done this. That's part of why she hates me "this time". I told her about me being with others on occasion when she ran out on me in the past, and she is having serious issues with me over it. Although, she had left me for others on those occasions.
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