3 weeks ago I went to our family cottage to do snow removal...when I returned my stbx decided to end her life by ODing. I dialed 911 and off to the hospital with her. Later I found out that she had no intention of killing herself she did it to trigger me on purpose and guilt me into staying. Now she says that her taking the pills was my fault and now her therapist wants to admit her and thats my fault too. I told her 3 years ago to find a job b/c I was planning on leaving. Last year complicated things and made our relationship past the point of impossible. It took me up until last october to convince her I was serious and she got a job. Everything dealing with our marriage that is bad is my fault and her situation is my fault..hell everything that turns out bad is my fault. I went with my mother to the cottage last friday and came home to all of this again on sunday minus the OD. I take 17 pills a day to keep myself from harming myself and yet when I'm away from her I don't take them at all and feel actually happy. My psych doc has told me our relationship is toxic to me and my recovery. I have to leave but I'm scared...guess I'm looking for support...am I justified?? Worried about my boys (15,18) I seem to lack courage to stand up for myself. ??anybody here??
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