March 17th- last week I had a bad day at work and I wanted to leave my job but I wasn't sure about my relationship I've been in for 2 years. I'm in love with him...but he couldn't take the next step and I was having doubts. Well last saturday I grabbed my cat and clothes and moved back in with my parents after 17 years of being on my own. I had to quit my job and relocate to MD til I could sort things out. The night I moved out he joined match.com (Yes...torturing myself by reading his emails and I do have his passwords..but I'm obsessed). How could he replace me after living together for 2 years!!! In less than a day!! Granted if I didn't do what I did I would still be with him. Ironically we did have a great relationship...But it came down that after 2 years he couldn't give me a ring. I asked him in Jan if I should leave and he said he wanted to work on things. Now he's emailing women saying he finally got rid of his girlfriend and he should have done it a while ago. I uprooted my life to live in his state and he destroyed mine. I'm on several xanax a day to get by. I want to hurt him so bad. I'm dying and he's out dating and its less than a week!! Please Please I know EVERYONE says it will get better...and I do agree...but how do I get thru the NOW!!!!!!! HELP!
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