I broke up with my finacee recently. Actually just over a week ago. i loved her, i still love her. But there were somethings that i couldn't let go. then after the break up she started behaving in a way unacceptable to me. Anyways, we had planned our lives together. After graduation I was going to move in with her and go to community college near here. It had a great program for me and then in two years I would transfer to a four year college. anyways, we had a plan. don't get me wrong, breaking up was the right thing to do, but now, I have no idea what i'm doing with my life. I'm a senior in high school, going into my second semester and have applied to NO colleges. The only way to get away from my abusive parents next year with out causing a fuss is by going to a four year. I don't even know if I can get in to one. well, one that i would be less then miserable at. i feel like when i broke up with my fiancee my life became aimless. when i was with her i had a plan, i knew what i was working towards goals, i knew what i wanted. now i'm at a loss. i don't know what i want, where i'm going. i have some vague goals. I want to get published (i'm a writter). Eventually i want a family. i know i'm going to need some sort of college degree. i have nothing against community college. that's where i am right now. middle college is awesome. but i didn't think i needed to look at four year colleges. and now, kaput, new plan needed. it's all up in smoke. I feel totally adrift at sea. Well, thanks to anyone who took the time to actually read all this.
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