In my heart I know that I am, but doesn\'t almost everyone wonder? He has had many chances to turn thngs around and has never taken advantage of the opportunity. Now that I have drawn the line for the 4th time...now he has quit drinking(I think), started therapy for himself, been just oh so nice. To me, now it is fake. He is shoving his new found \"life\" and apologies down my throat and I am expected to go ok. But I can\'t this time. He pushed me away just too many times. Then why do I feel guilty for wanting better, for finally having the courage to say enough. So he is once again back to is old self, but it is my fault. I tried to talk to him and let him know how I was feeling, scared, alone and all that, but as a friend, because I needed one. And he took everything the wrong way and is now being the same old scary, unstable person I have always known him to be. We are still living together and will until I can get the $$$ to buy him out of the house we share. Someone tell me..I am doing the right thing, it is tearing me up inside and I am going crazy.
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