I hate that I miss him, and now is worse because he just moved far away. I know I did the right thing, but I just want the memories to go away. I am having trouble knowing that I've done the wrong thing because older people in church are putting me down for it, but I know there was some emotional or verbal abuse going on...there was a reason why i finally broke down. I just have to keep telling myself that. I hope I can get through this, I do not know how strong I am. He is my first love, I tried so hard for the marriage to work...and I'm the one who ended it.
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