After crying hysterically for an hour yesterday and again this morning, I'm once again in a dark hole blaming myself for everything that went wrong in the relationship. The hautning questions keep coming back like"why am I not good enough" and "what's wrong with me". Although my husband hurt me in many ways, right now I can't seem to think back to the frustration and anger I felt during those times. All I can do is to think that he's right--especially when he's saying his only fault in this relationship was enabling me. is it rejection that's making me feel this way? My sister said to me not to "idealize" the relationship and reminded me the many times I called her for support. I'm so scared, feel alone and rejected.
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